I really hope people understand how lucky they are when they have no health problems.
I can see how parents are so relieved when children are born with all their toes and a nose. So many things can mess up along the way.
I’m happy to be alive and healthy for the most part but at the same time I’m upset that I can’t be like everybody else. *Shakes fists* I want to eat everything I want, to cuddle all the animals I want. I know what I have isn’t the most dehabilitating thing in the world but it’d be nice not to have it. It’s nice coming to college and finding out I’m not so alone. That there’s less ignorance, kids and adults can be so mean without even knowing. I already know, and I know you’re just trying to be nice but
It’s hard sometimes to not be sensitive.
At the same time I’m thankful for this because at least I know what others are going through. And maybe I can actually help solve these problems for other people, one day that is.
Sorry for ranting rawr ~
I’m not looking to make love.
I’m not looking for kisses.
I’m not looking for cuddles.
I’m not looking for hugs.
I just need a shoulder that won’t be weak or shaken when I am, a dependable shoulder that’s always there.
I just want to fall.
I just want to lay in the grass with a good sandwich and a cup each of juice, water and coffee.
I want the strength to turn away from all the lies, all the lies on top of lies on top of lies. The hurting. And maybe even the good times.
I think you’d be there at the end of the day if I really needed you but the part of me that’s saying you won’t be is growing. People change and that’s fine do what you have to. I’m just a little sad to see a part of me die and I’m not okay yet.
I wish I had more time to sort out my life but there really isn’t, I guess I can try this summer though. When I’m finally alone.
I saw most of my family this weekend, I really want to go back.
Something to think about:
Amiens, France (by David.Keochkerian )